utopian drivel

Huw Lemmey
weekly essays on sex, history, memory and more, by Huw Lemmey
Created 29 May 2019
  • Queer Heart
    06 Nov 2021 • 1 min read
    Quentin Crisp What does it mean to be “of your time”? I wanted to write “a man or woman of their time” here, but it strikes me that one hears “he was a man of his time” much more frequently than one h...
  • LGW
    18 Oct 2021 • < 1 min read
    Usually, the sentiment for the home turf is strongest in those who have left and now returned. In the damp sod, the old bricks, and cracked skyline of rooftops the prodigal child sees, wistfully, both...
  • Nobody Left to Believe
    06 Oct 2021 • 13 min read
    Do you think of Freddie Mercury as a gay icon? If so, you are, statistically speaking, straight. I’m sorry to be the one to break the bad news to you, but that is the way the cards have fallen. It’s t...
  • Double Heritage
    20 Aug 2021 • 9 min read
    It feels like a crass way to introduce a character, but I will start with the buttocks; after all, that was enough to catch my eye, and to set rolling our own narrative. It’s good enough for you. The ...
  • a nobody, a smoking cigarette, at the station
    10 Aug 2021 • < 1 min read
    Outside it is blazing heat, and we take momentary refuge in an old palazzo, refurbished, like so many southern european sites of grandeur, into a contemporary art gallery. The internal courtyard is co...
  • One of the Biggest Scams of the 21st Century
    26 Jul 2021 • < 1 min read
    (Best to listen along if you can) “It was a lifelong dream I had as a child, and it’s actually come to pass in my adult life.” That’s an ear-worm I got as a teenager, and have never managed to shake. ...
  • Happy Birthday, Walter Benjamin
    16 Jul 2021 • < 1 min read
    Benjamin (right) playing chess with Brecht Yesterday was Walter Benjamin’s birthday. He was born at the height of the German Empire, in 1892, “a well-born bourgeois child”, in his own words, and he di...
  • Meaningless Sex
    07 Jul 2021 • 6 min read
    For every major prophet — rebels and mystics — whose words become religion, there are 100 minor prophets — baptists and soothsayers — who are merely shadows of what was to come. For every minor prophe...
  • Tart
    13 May 2021 • < 1 min read
    It was cold to the touch, ice cold, as the recipe required. I had prepped beforehand; the butter to the freezer, the flour and sugar sifted, it falling soft as breath against the hairs on the back of ...
  • Bad Sex Part II
    27 Apr 2021 • 10 min read • 6 0
    A few weeks ago I wrote about the Bad Sex Awards, and the difficulties in writing publicly about sex, about representing a bodily and mental experience that is so full of passing ardour in a format th...
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