Miss Mary

Miss Mary
All about grief, hope and everything in between.
Created 07 May 2021
  • A Breakup
    03 Oct 2021 • 1 min read
    I found myself in a conversation about breakups recently and felt that I have to address the thoughts that have been gnawing at me for a while now. But as October neared, all I remember was the time I...
  • TIL
    25 Sep 2021 • 2 min read • 1 1
    This year I learned I am an introvert. I’m loud and I like to think that I’m a funny person. My friends would describe me as cheerful. I shamelessly sing and dance at random times. I wear loud colors,...
  • Ooh. She's a rebel.
    10 Sep 2021 • 1 min read
    I went on a strike against myself the past week or so. I refused to acknowledge the sadness, guilt, bitterness and joy that came my way. I denied them to myself. “Ha! I won’t even write and process fe...
  • Hope Fatigue
    28 Aug 2021 • 2 min read • 1 0
    Today, I attended a talk about grief. A few minutes before it started, I was hesitating to join because I was thinking “Grief na naman?! Di pa ba tayo tapos diyan, self?”. Am I making my grief a big d...
  • saudade
    23 Aug 2021 • 2 min read • 1 0
    I promised myself to publish an entry here once a week when I started for me to have a space to process my feelings and reflect on the past week. And to somehow be more attuned to my creative self. I ...
  • It's OK, everything will be alright
    14 Aug 2021 • 2 min read
    I spent half of the past week in bed thinking if I should already write my will. I had fever, sore throat and body pains because of tonsilitis. For 24 hours my fever was intermittent. My temperature w...
  • Dreams
    08 Aug 2021 • 1 min read
    Dream 1. a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep. I’ve heard and read about people dreaming about their departed loved ones. Their dreams were vivid and ...
  • Never Walking Alone
    31 Jul 2021 • 3 min read • 1 1
    Have you ever had that moment of a clear mind with a burst of energy and a lot of drive that makes you finish all the tasks you’ve been putting off for days? I had that moment earlier this week. It fe...
  • How are you today?
    25 Jul 2021 • < 1 min read • 1 0
    Tomorrow marks the first year of Ian’s death. How has it been? It has been a year of grief and love. Of healing tears and genuine smiles. Of regrets and grace. Of learning and growing. Of yearning and...
  • Healing the Wounds
    18 Jul 2021 • 1 min read • 1 0
    This week was a little difficult. It felt like Semana Santa (Holy Week). It felt like I was preparing myself for a death I know will come. Ian was intubated July 12 last year. On July 12 this year, I ...
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