going it alone

Michele Catalano
essays and fiction and whatnot, delivered to your inbox periodically
Created 09 Oct 2020
  • The Shakes
    20 Oct 2021 • 1 min read • 5 0
    Your room is always dark. Even when I turn the switch on, the shade is so heavy and the bulb so dim that the lamp only makes shadows of everything. I run my finger along the dust on your desk. I hold ...
  • Hope
    18 Oct 2021 • 3 min read • 6 0
    hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption Hope. Sometimes it’s all we have. When we despair, when we wallow in sadness, when it feels all so hopeless, we can reach down into our well of e...
  • Erasure
    14 Oct 2021 • 2 min read • 7 0
    It’s a weird thing to be erased from someone’s life, like you were a mistake to be deleted, disappeared. You feel dispensable, like you don’t matter. We said at the beginning of the end that we’d rema...
  • Tis the Season
    12 Oct 2021 • 3 min read • 4 0
    We’re in mid-October and Halloween is just around the corner so it’s time for stores to start crowding out the candy and spooky decorations with Thanksgiving stuff. In two weeks time, the aisles of Ta...
  • Days of Horror Past
    07 Oct 2021 • 3 min read • 4 0
    When I was in my late teens, I worked in one of the first video stores on Long Island. This was when you paid an exorbitant yearly fee to join, then had added rental fees on top of that. People were s...
  • Artifacts
    04 Oct 2021 • 2 min read • 4 0
    I deleted his voicemails. They were just sitting there - fifteen of them, some dating back to 2016 - not serving any purpose but to remind me that he once loved me. I listened to them all before I del...
  • Old
    30 Sep 2021 • 2 min read • 6 0
    I am not old. Old is the oak tree in my front yard, in its place so long nobody remembers a time without it. Old is the ocean, the stars, the forests. Old is when you don’t have the numbers to put an ...
  • In Praise of Comfort Watching
    27 Sep 2021 • 3 min read • 3 0
    I don’t watch a lot of tv shows. I don’t have what it takes to commit to tuning into something every week, and I don’t have the attention span it takes to binge. I also have no interest in watching an...
  • Fall On Me
    22 Sep 2021 • 1 min read • 6 3
    I used to be really into photography. I have a beautiful camera and several lenses that have gone to waste lately, but when photography was an active hobby, I was all in. My favorite thing to photogra...
  • The Grieving of Things
    21 Sep 2021 • 3 min read • 6 1
    Subscribe now editor’s note: I know this newsletter has been harping on the same themes since January; love, loss, heartbreak, endings. Maybe I’ll get back to talking about my favorite albums or child...
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