Exploring identity after being diagnosed autistic at 45
Created 04 Sep 2021
  • 20: I can’t lie, but I’m a good actor
    20 Dec 2021 • 6 min read
    image © the author I was watching a dialog take place on LinkedIn recently where an autistic self advocate was posting about the harm caused by parents who teach their autistic kids to behave accordin...
  • 19: Going to an AA meeting
    11 Dec 2021 • 9 min read
    image © the author A few weeks ago I decided to go to an AA meeting just to see what it was like. I’ve read a lot about AA, and listened to a lot of people talk about AA, and the way people write and ...
  • 18: Thanksgiving without alcohol
    03 Dec 2021 • 9 min read
    image © the author It was just a month ago that I realized I needed to stop drinking, and almost at the same time decided to switch to a completely plant based diet. Last week was Thanksgiving, and as...
  • 17: Surviving vs. experiencing joy
    26 Nov 2021 • 9 min read
    image © the author The changes in my life since March of 2020 have been dramatic. On the surface, things are the same - same job, same house, same family - but a layer deeper there has been a lot of t...
  • 16: Truths I’m willing to admit
    19 Nov 2021 • 8 min read
    image © the author I’ve known deep down for many years that my drinking was a problem. But, it’s never visibly impacted my life (no lost job, no DUI tickets, no car accidents, no destroyed relationshi...
  • 15: Disordered eating
    13 Nov 2021 • 11 min read
    image © the author The summer I turned 21 I was living in New York City doing an unpaid internship at a major corporation in Times Square, working at an ice cream shop at night, and living with my gir...
  • Fourteen: Autism and acting
    04 Nov 2021 • 12 min read
    image © the author I met my old friend Gary for breakfast when I was in New York for a visit, a few years after I had moved away. Gary was more than thirty years older than me, the father of a college...
  • Thirteen: Understanding alcohol - facing the present
    28 Oct 2021 • 8 min read
    image © the author In my previous post, I wrote about my history with alcohol, how I think it helped me cope with the “difference” of being autistic, and how I’ve learned to moderate my drinking witho...
  • Twelve: Understanding alcohol
    22 Oct 2021 • 10 min read
    image © the author I didn’t drink a single sip of alcohol until my 21st birthday. In the US, that is the first day one is allowed to drink legally, and although the law is widely ignored by high schoo...
  • Eleven: The promise (and illusion) of the fresh start
    16 Oct 2021 • 8 min read
    In the fifteen years between my 19th and 34th birthdays, I moved to a different state eight times. The first one was to go to college - that one I think is completely typical of middle class Americans...
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