And She Abandons Her Mind to Obscure Arts

S. Jae-Jones
BTS, Dragon Age, lexical gaps, diaspora feelings, frivolous opinions about culture, random thoughts on tarot and astrology, oh and occasionally updates on my books and what I'm working on I GUESS.
Created 16 Jul 2019
  • 정, or how I became a member of BTS ARMY
    21 Sep 2021 • 17 min read
    난 숨쉬고 싶어 이 밤이 싫어 I want to breathe, I hate this night 이젠 깨고 싶어 꿈속이 싫어 I want to wake up, I hate being within dreams 내 안에 갇혀서 난 죽어있어 Imprisoned within myself, I’m dying Don’t wanna be lonely Just wanna...
  • My autobiography, as written by the stars and interpreted by me
    14 Sep 2021 • 22 min read • 2 0
    I’ve never really identified with my sun sign. I am a Cancer sun, and according to most pop astrology takes, I am overemotional, clingy, passive-aggressive, comforting, nurturing, and (ugh) maternal. ...
  • The climb
    16 Aug 2021 • 12 min read • 4 0
    CW: suicidal thoughts, mental illness, death of a loved one, this fucking pandemic, loss I got a wolf cut to keep up with the zoomers on TikTok. It is July 9. I am 36 years old today. And I am still a...
  • A season of grief
    31 Mar 2021 • 14 min read • 7 0
    할머니 died on the first day of Pisces season. My other grandmother died on the first day of spring, the start of Aries season. Two months ago, I had two grandmothers. Now I have none. It has been a mont...
  • 할머니
    21 Feb 2021 • 26 min read • 13 8
    This is not the newsletter I wanted to send next. I’ve been writing this for almost a week now, returning to it in fits and starts, wondering when the final words, the final date, were to going to be ...
  • All the Dragon Age love interests, ranked in order of best to Anders
    15 Feb 2021 • 13 min read • 1 1
    Dragon Age is probably my favorite videogame franchise. Granted, I don’t play many videogames at all, but of the few I have played, I love Dragon Age the best. I could list all the myriad reasons why ...
  • The agony of being digestible, or I owe you an explanation
    08 Feb 2021 • 7 min read • 12 3
    I have a Scorpio 10th house, and that is why I hate being perceived. Or at least, that’s what I tell myself. But that’s not an explanation, not really. It’s been two years, I owe y’all an honest recou...
  • Objects in the inbox may seem different than they had once appeared
    07 Feb 2021 • 1 min read • 4 0
    Plus ça change, plus c'est la même chose. New city, new newsletter, but the same old White-Harp tucked into my dad’s armchair If you’re reading this, hello! Provided I haven’t gotten lost somewhere in...
  • Lexical Gap No. 25: Kaizen
    05 Feb 2019 • 7 min read • 1 0
    burnout I've been thinking a lot about burnout recently. I suppose I could say it all began when I read How Millennials Became the Burnout Generation by Anne Helen Petersen (an excellent read, by the ...
  • Lexical Gap No. 24: Gula
    03 Jan 2019 • 8 min read
    Between sea and sky Here, there, everywhere—I just assume you're in-between places all the time, my friend Canada said to me last year. In fairness, I seemed to be traveling more often than not, so pi...
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