the immense wave

Marianela D'Aprile
often music, always feelings, not necessarily in that order
Created 17 Jan 2021
  • I wrote my name in your book
    16 Dec 2021 • 3 min read • 9 0
    I’ve been feeling off lately. About six weeks ago, I tore my right calf playing soccer, meaning that I had to miss the last game of the season and also that, until two days ago, I was unable to go on ...
  • Sondheim, etc.
    02 Dec 2021 • 1 min read
    Stephen Sondheim’s death hit me harder than I thought it would. Not that I was sitting around wondering what I would feel when Stephen Sondheim died. Or regularly listening to his music for that matte...
  • 25 november 2021
    25 Nov 2021 • 2 min read • 5 0
    It’s getting cold here in Brooklyn, so lately, for comfort, I’ve been listening almost exclusively to things I know well: early Perfume Genius (primarily Put Your Back N 2 It), Gustavo Cerati (the lat...
  • I'm not here.
    18 Nov 2021 • 2 min read • 3 0
    In my first memory of having an episode of sleep paralysis I am eight years old, in the left backseat of the car my parents drove at the time, head against the window. My mom is standing outside the d...
  • Who Cares What these Men Did?
    16 Nov 2021 • 3 min read • 11 0
    When I was eighteen I cried at a party because I thought I’d be single forever, an idea which now fills me with a thrilling sense of possibility but which at the time made me cartoonishly sad. I was n...
  • This Is Just a Nightmare
    11 Nov 2021 • 2 min read • 3 0
    I notice the F is going the way of the G when we hit Hoyt instead of Jay St but don’t react quickly enough to get off. I haven’t been listening to the announcements, even though the sign over our head...
  • Let's speak of the past
    07 Nov 2021 • 2 min read • 5 0
    I’m on the C reading about someone about ten years older than you were, someone with the life I think you maybe wished you’d lived, and this makes me sad for the life you did live. I’m remembering now...
  • I surrender, baby
    04 Nov 2021 • 2 min read • 2 0
    One time I took a boyfriend to a War on Drugs show, and when we left he told me all their songs sounded the same. He was right. Listen to any War on Drugs record and hear living vestiges of past songs...
  • All I Want Is You
    28 Oct 2021 • 3 min read • 5 0
    Last weekend I met up with a new friend, S, who toward the end of our time together mentioned to me that it’s now cool among those in-the-know to dislike Radiohead. I understand the temptation, if you...
  • Inshallah They Find Him
    21 Oct 2021 • 2 min read • 8 0
    When I started using Twitter more than eleven years ago there was a little star button that turned a golden yellow when you pressed it. This feature was called a “favorite.” I took “faving” a tweet li...
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